Dear Inner Skinny Girl

Dear Inner Skinny Girl, 

I cant wait for you to surface!!! I cant wait to show you off! 

I had what I call a skinny girl moment, a few minutes ago. And it felt so good!

It's actually kind of funny to explain. 

OK So, I'm at work. I work in a Lab, so my breaks and lunches are in a separate room. Well, I noticed on my sparkpeople.com page that i hadn't drank nearly enough water today. SO I went into the breakroom to get more ice water for myself. I enter the room, and what's on the table stares me in the face. I get mad. Legitimately mad. Sort of LOL 

"How dare they order this food full of carbs and shi&!" I fume inside my head. "Don't these a$$hats know I'm trying to be healthy? This does NOT Help!" 

Of course, OBVIOUSLY, they were not thinking of me and my needs when the food was ordered. Honestly, it was more than likely food ordered by a drug sponsor for the whole place in exchange for them listening to his shpiel about the new medication he was trying to sell. 

ANYWAYS! Moving on LOL 

I look at the bagel pieces on the table, glance at the chocolate chip cookies, and the muffins. And laugh! Out loud. Like almost an evil villainess laugh. Like an Ursula-from-little-mermaid laugh.... I am quite sure that those muffins were about to grow legs and try to run away from me LOL 

I am not tempted in the least... not at all. Don't want them. Not a bit. Not the reaction I expected from myself to be honest. 

In fact, once I have my ice water in hand, I slam the freezer door, slam the covers down on top of the muffins so i dont have to look at them, say, "I'm gonna go eat the sh%t that's good for me, here's what I think of you," and fart in that horrible-for-me food's direction and immediately leave the room! LOL 

I showed those muffins.... 

Here's to you letitng you out Inner Skinny Girl 

Sincerely, 
Temporarily Fat Chick

Lifestyle change

Day 3

My name is Janis. I am a single 25 year old mom with a monster of a 3 year old (see my other blog - post link). I work two jobs as a phlebotomist. And boy, am I sick and tired of being tired. Tired of being unhealthy, sluggish, slow, and in a bad mood. For once I want to go to the beach and be proud to show off my sexy body, not so ashamed that i hide it. 

I suppose desire is the first quality you have to have to get what you want. Check! Got it. 

I refuse to call what I am doing a diet, I will call it a lifestyle change, because lets face it, that's what it needs to be to maintain healthiness. You can't be in good overall health after a month or two of doing a 'diet', and you sure as hell cant stay that way years and years after doing some fad diet either. It has to be a change that you consciously have to make. You have to pay attention to every little detail.... 

Well, folks, i am now on day 3 of my lifestyle change. The first day was hard, the second day (being the Fourth of July) was even harder, but I managed. Today was the easiest day so far. 

Made my first milestone today, I refused pizza. It was right there in the break-room in front of my face, steaming, the smells of basil and oregano filled the air. And yet, somehow, i was still able to turn away from it, and go back into the lab where i work, and happily drink that water. 

I asked myself a series of questions. 

1. Did I need this? Hell NO, I DID NOT need it. *as I look down at my tummy* Plus I had already had my lunch. 

2. What did i want more, that pizza in my belly, or my ultimate goal to be accomplished? Easy answer right then. I wanted my results. I want to be the one everyone stares at drooling over at the beach. 

Honestly, i think my legs walked away before i even had the chance to make the decision in my head. Bully for them.

Food as of today @ 2:30 PM: 

Breakfast: 1 cup of Chobani Greek Strawberry Yogurt @ 8:30 AM

Snack: 4 mini bell peppers with 2 oz of garlic hummus, and 1 mini cuke

Lunch: 4 or 5 slices of plain turkey lunch-meat, a small fruit salad consisting of watermelon, pineapple, strawberries, and blueberries; and a half a sliced apple with an ounce or so of peanut butter. 

Snack: 7 baby carrot sticks and 6 - 2 inch long pieces of celery with 1 oz or so of almond butter; and one mini cuke. 

I feel like this is actually a lot of food, it's just all food that's great for me. 

Bully for me, I had no straight carbs today :) 

Tonight is the Fourth of July party my boyfriends sister is having, lets see how I do. I know i have some apple chicken sausage I can roast over the fire. No booze for me tonight?? 

Wish me luck!!!